An almost but not quite relationship ♥

So he is Christian Ivann Tan. I met him not personally, but on Facebook. He's quite handsome, sweet, thoughtful, caring but he is a pervert. Yeah I've known him since this January 2011 started. He is so playful when it comes to girls. I just got the chance to know him because of my non-biological mom, Joyce. He courts Joyce but he was just got dumped. We began to start our friendship even though he stopped courting Joyce. He used to call me "Ate" and I call him "Kuya". Too much time passed, we never get sympathy of each other until this April. He approach me via Facebook chat and then he just ask how am I now, and I just said that I am ok. I asked him who's his girl and told me none. I was shock because he always got new girls around believing that he could get anyone he likes. Began this thought. he tried to court me either. I rode at him but may intention was to make fool of him (Happy April Fools!) I made this decision to make him realize that not everybody could be him and somewhat use to call "EX". I planned to make him fall in love me at sarcastic point. We did texting, chat, stayed late talking to him and such damn things. We talked about so many things and I learned a lot from him and him too. But then I saw my self smiling whenever I got texts to him (who's not? he is sooo sweet, I admit it) I got quite a bit jealous whenever I saw his wall with perverts. HEY! I asked myself, Am I falling in love with this man? Oh come on! How can I? This is so wrong. Mom Joyce and Daddy Kimuel asks me if I'm ok, and if I want some back up, I said I can handle it. I took deep realization of what to do, I was thinking to say yes, but then I resist it. I have to support my stand that not all girls can be his. So this night, I PMed him with ":P" he asked me what's my height and then I told I'm 5'2 and he said "bakit ka nagkasya sa puso ko? ♥" I just laugh at him and then we got serious talk. He asked what's my answer. I took a long time to say that I don't want to. HELL YEAH. I still doubt but then I have to say NO. He is so lonely, I'm guilt. But what should I do? that's just right for him T_T I'm not sure about him, if he is telling the truth. I'm guilt, I love him too. I love him. No doubt about that. And I must admit that I will be missing him. I'll be missing his texts, goodnights, iloveyous, and all that. I will miss the whole him. Am I rude? I'm just protecting myself? I though fooling him is easy and make me happy but then I end up hard to let go and unhappy. For sure he tomorrow, he will love a new girl. :( I am so damn. For the second time, I hurt a guy. I fool myself that I don't need them. cry cry cry cry cry.