28

HAPPY TWENTY-EIGHT to me :)) Yah know why it is 28? It's a combination of numbers twenty and eight. It has special meaning. Twenty serves as Reuel and Eight is our monthsary of my guy best friend - kapatid james. They are both special to me so I combined them and 28 formed.

Anyway, this morning made me really nervous. We're on formation when Ma'am Araullo asked for my white handkerchief. I gave her mine and as she walk through I heard someone's voice but i can't understand what it is. That voice is so familiar, I know it's Reuel's. I just ignored it but my feeling is so unexplainable. Afternoon that day, my Papsi told me that Reuel have no handkerchief. She told me that Reuel uses my hanky, and it made me feel "OOH YEAH" my circumstances are true. hahahaha this made my day complete. nyahahaha

FUN DAY: PHOTOSHOOT W/KAREN ♥

This pictures took at Villa Antonio. Family resort of my guy best friend. I love this place, really wonderful

YOU ♥

I want a guy best friend who gets mistaken as my boyfriend. A guy best friend is everything you need. Another boy who makes your life complete. A boy who I can run to when my girl BFFs aren't around. He'll kick my future boyfriend's arse when he makes me cry. He'll make me laugh when there's tears in my eyes. He is immediately my date on special occasions when you're single. Idk why. But I really need a guy best friend. A real guy best friend. I guess I'm in love with my best friend.

I MiSS YOU ♥

Because of the annoying new seating arrangements my life now is miserable being jealous to my kapatid's seat mate. I admit it-I am jealous. I know it's kinda selfish or what can you call it but I supposed to be with their position. I am my kapatid's seatmate I am with him going to comfort room. But now he intend to invite someone to go with him. Unfair?! I don't know. We supposed to talk about something but now it's rare enough. I am sooooooo upset. What the hell I supposed to do? this affects me a lot - I can't focus on my studies and I can't concentrate on what I am about to do. This is bothering! I should not be jealous right? because I am just a friend or something. That's he's life. Annoying!

Lord, Please help me to get along with this hates. Please lead me to good way and so I can do productive with my life. I hope I could study better than before. I promised my kapatid that I will be in the top students again but how should I, if I kept thinking of him and being jealous with people around her? I am being hypocrite dumb ass. -_________-

NEW SEATiNG ARRANGEMENT: NOT GOOD -_-

The change I'm afraid for is finally getting to my way T.T . And it really made me feel sad and totally depressed. It ca,e to a point that it pissed me of. Well, I said earlier that I have to prepare for the coming changes into my life particularly my second quarter life. This includes seating arrangements -- fuck this life! I'm seating next to the noisiest person in class! How the heck! and then to my very dismay, I am also next with the person I hate the most in our class! T.T miserable life. Another thing is I am far with my best friend kapatid. I think he's happy with his seat mates, I know, I see it. He's with Irebby and Rheinalee his co-top students. This is hard to bare. What really pissed me off is the fact that I have nothing to talk with, unlike before, my co-chismosa's are too far from me and my other chismosa friend(joyce) is at my back. What I do is I exchange seats to who ever care for my happiness! LOLjk. I exchange seats with Rizza so I am with Seiztahter. But sometimes he/she is going to his/her friends. I HATE IT. I HATE THAT FUCKING NEW SEATING ARRANGEMENT! >:(((((((((((

MUCH FRiEND ♥

This durian candy is given me by Ziela. My ex-classmate, a friend who is now in Davao. He moved school this year. LAst week I asked her to give me durian candies coz this is my favorite delicacies from Davao. I was just joking and then this morning her sister called me in our classroom and handed me this. I am so happy, she really loves me. hehehe OOOOH I missed her na! her voice calling me on my wicked nickname "KIMBOT" hahahaha. Her personally of making me laugh so hard everyday! I miss that dumb ass girl! hahaha LOL jk :)

KEPT MEMORIES ♥

Have you ever wonder why I put pictures whenever I made a blog post? It's because pictures kept important memories, and it serves as a proof for something I've done and someone I am with according to my story. As much as possible whenever I do something, I try to get a picture with it. And even a single piece. For example someone very important to me gave me a candy even though I looked like a stupid shit, I will took a picture of it and I'll post it here. :)) Actually of all my heartaches, happiness, pains and sorrows you all know that because I find time to write in you. Even all the events and special people I love, I wrote it here. Thank you for being part of my life. HUUGS ♥

i'M WiTH YOU ♥

This afternoon, I went to church to attend meeting for the sacristan. I am happy because I'm with REUEL (my present and future) JASON (my past) and JAMES-kapatid(very important to me). I am in kilig state of my life but I still remained cool. After the meeting we went to school together with, Nathan, Jelline, Maries, Reuel, and James. We do nothing in there so we decided to freshened up ourselves to seven-eleven and then that. We took slurpee glasses, and I offered Reuel some because the our only two. He just smiled. We waited for the slurpee to be done and then suddenly i decided to dump my glass (wasted) and because I'm not a good shooter, I was messed up with it. I does not fit in the trash can. They laughed. A major turn off! >:P But it's ok atleast I am with him. :)

THANK YOU ^^ ♥

Dear Best Friend, Thank you so much for being nice and loving best friend to me even if you're a damn bully. Thank you for making me feel that I'm safe and secure whenever you are around. Thank you because you are still with me for all the times of my life, you know that I have stupid childish acts, but you remain patient to me. I know you are not like others that really shows their love and care for their best friends but I know that I have a big part there in you heart and you love me too. I LOVE Y|O|U BEST KAPATID :*

Anyway I just want to make that as my introductory speech. You know what blog, those words at the top are from my heart. And I wish to tell him to my kapatid, but he might just make laugh at me. Seriously he didn't want me to make any dramas. Dumb ass! hehehe. Anyway I appreciate him anyway and I'm making this post for the greatness he did for me last time. For the second time, he lend me his clothe because I'm in a need. Remember what I told you on my previous post (Priceless Memories) ? We need to wear a black t-shirt suddenly I have nothing to wear. I texted my friend (Lorraine) and borrowed some but she's nothing to offer. Instead she helped me by asking our other friends. And fortunately my kapatid rescued me and he said that he will bring me the shirt I need. AWW. I'm touched. And the thing that we are gonna make ruined that shirt and that shirt is his uniform with his organization KOA/FOA. Yeah that tshirt is messed up. :( hehehehehe But it was cleaned by my mom. Here it looks after the activity we have ..

CHANGE♥

BORED LiFE ♥

Heya! I'm becoming lazier than before this past few days. My life is full of stress and school is killing me out. but despite of that shits I am bored too. Oh well I'm so thankful that you+tumblr+facebook is keeping me alive. Tumblr offered this 30 day challenge and i grabbed it for fun. I have to do this 30 indicated questions for 30 days. And this starts today.

DAY 01 - A recent picture of you and 15 facts about yourself

1. KIM is my name. Drama Princess and a crybaby.
2. I love chocolates and Sneakers is my favorite. I like strawberries
3. I hate hot foods/beverages.
4. I love acting. I want to be a theater artist in future.
5. My mom hammered my right hand when I was in Nursery, because I’m lazy to write. But I prefer writing than drawings.
6. I am a Class Secretary for 6 years.
7. I buy books but I never give time to read them.
8. I love quotations. I relate myself to it.
9. I travel to provinces by myself alone. And then collect key chains having a trade mark of that place.
10. I’m stupid in Mathematics and Science. My Achilles’ heel is computations, equations and problem solving.
11. I love photos. I captured things as a souvenir or proof for something. And because of that I joined being a photojournalist in our school, but I’m not a professional photographer.
12. I love bags especially purses. I can’t leave without those.
13. I don’t know how to use bicycles.
14. I dream of living in London.
15. I live for my friends and my family, I dearly love them. I don’t like when they hate me.

PRE-DSSPC

Last night I prayed to God to make Reuel well. I offered my whole Sunday to him praying, asking and hoping to God. This Monday morning we, together with my other schoolmates will compete with other school. This is called Press-Conference, this have 7-8 major categories and i belong to New Writing section. Reuel is also part of our team and I was still hoping that he is able to joined us. Gladly, I saw him from a distance riding on a jeepney.My heart beats faster in happiness. That was so amazing, God is really good! anyway this day is full of mixed emotions I was happy and then i felt a little bit of sadness and some pints of jealousy.

• I compete for News Writing using a Filipino medium and then I was with the most horrible officer I have. hahahaha but in the contest I'm proudly to say that she is so nice. She even gave me a snack. i don't know what news writing is all about I just guess what to do with it. Yeah I admit I'm not that prepared for this. Last year my category was Photojournalism but unfortunately I do not have any manual cameras for this day so I decided not to joined that category this time.
• I am so upset during the awarding ceremonies. I got nothing. Of course I didn't exert much effort for my category so I must not expect anything. But too bad my other set of friends are awarders. Esp. Abby and Kenneth that last year got nothing just as I am. But now they got an award and me? NOTHING again. Into my very dismay, Nathan got 14 for photojournalism (Filipino medium) he was just a newbie. No hard feelings what I mean is, he told me that they are only 20 participants in that category, if I have a camera I might win also right?! Oh well that's life. During that awarding I felt I was a big dumb, a dullard and all that. But they cheered me up and they told me there's always bee a "next time".
• When it comes to my friends I became so happy. I was with my Seiztah and we bond so much this day. I missed being with her and I remember the old times we always be with each other. There's this conflict happened to us, I usually with my guy-best friend-James and her being with her gal-pals, Mia and Ritzelle. We do not have any time to bond in school because I am busy so much with my organizations and all that. Gladly now, we spare much time to talk. My kapatid spent his time with his boy-bestfriend, Bamboo (oh well his real name is John Kenneth, we just used to call him Bamboo). And then my Tit*Karen and I also bond this time. We took a photoshoot in the mini-forest and it was so fun. Posing like this and this. :)
  
• And after a long long tiring day, we need to go home because it's late. While we our waiting for our jeepney service (Me and Kapatid took the second trip with 4th year students. bamboo and Seiztah need to go home so they are the on the first trip), I have this little cute conversation with kapatid. I didn't really expect that he will utter those words to me. the conversation goes like this; ME-"Hmm, buong araw kayo magksama ng best friend mo aa" and I was staring on something, and then suddenly he did something I can't remember that cause me to look at him and then he answered me, HIM-"Eh pano magkasama kayo ng SEIZTAH mo". I was shocked and stuck for a moment I really didn't expect him to say that, though I was happy when i heard those. Is he really jealous or what? I don't even know. And then we walk along the grounds at some point he teases me with Reuel. weee even though there's disappointments I am still happy for simple blessings i received this day. Enough for now, too tired. Tooodles :*

DEAR LORD ♥

Please get him well, he's been sick and absent for two long weeks (I guess). I miss him so much, this is my first time to feel this loneliness for I haven't seen him for a long period of time. Everyday of my life, I stare at the school's gate and looking if he's there but unfortunately he never shown. Yesterday, we have this fun-activity at school and I was thinking of him, every move we're up into I think of him and he served as my inspiration( Thoughts Palying in my mind: "I'll do this to make him proud of me even just a little") . I hoped that he's in there and part of that priceless happening in my life (our lives) but .. hmmmm.I wish him well. Please Lord Please let him well :D.

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I also include HIM into my prayers when I attended mass this morning. I'm sorry for this stupidities >:D I'm just missing him so much. I wanna be with him again (?) and also tomorrow! Yay! he's part of the competing team during press-conferences and all that which I belong too. hahahaha Speaking of Press-Con, my category last time was Photojournalism but since I do not have camera by now, I won't compete for that category tomorrow instead our School Paper adviser assigned me in News Writing Category. How happy I am when I knew she does that but there's a bit of dismay because my medium does change too -- From English to Tagalog. Yeah I admit I'm not good at English at all (you can see I have wrong grammars >:D) but I am not that "makata" for tagalog category. Enough for now, Tooodles :)

PRiCELESS MEMORiES ♥

SAD iN HAPPINESS ♥

I'm absent today. I have a diarrhea and it hurts like hell. Plus I have a runny nose. I decided not to attend classes. My mom brought me the City Hall's Health Center and there I was inject an anti-flu vaccine. Afternoon this day, when I was sleeping, I heard my classmates' voice calling outside our house. They visited me and they asked why I am absent then they brought me some news. First they tell me about our coming initiation this coming Saturday. They told me what to wear and what to bring. Second news is the announcement of the top. Unfortunately I do not belong with it. For the first time of my entire life I wasn't able to be in the honors. I'm a bit prepared of that but I'm afraid my mom wouldn't able to accept it. I was sad about it but what else can I do? I just have to accept and learn from it. Life teaches us and maybe that is a major lesson for me. And then I am also happy because one of my officer in COCC, Ma'am Shayne Araullo texted me and asked if I am ok. I'm glad on what she did because all of a sudden I think that she is really mad at me and she has hard feelings for me, but then I was wrong. She is so sweet. Another thing is that my kapatid also send me a cheer up message. It was in a group message form. He stated there that our goal in this quarter is avoiding lakwatchas and for me to be on top again. I replied a yes to him and he said that "kapatidq,xmpre,mgkasama tau lag. pag bagsak,mgkasama. dpat pag akyat din" and I was touched by that. I'm inspired to get along my way. I hope I could be better this time. I promise not to sleep when I'm doing some reviews. I promise to focus on my studies and not to entertain any heartaches that makes me doubt and so whatever. I will. :) I'll pray and hope for the better. I know Lord loves me. And I wish my mom will accept whole heartedly that I got down.

HAPPY MONTHSARY "EiGHT" ♥

Today is our friendly-monthsary (KAPATID). Every eight of the month, we celebrated our monthsary as FRIENDS and then I let him to greet me first but now I got this initiative to greet him first. So it's 4:30am this morning when I texted James, my kapatid a happy monthsary greetings. Well I got no reply, until I went to school early at 5:30am. I didn't expect him to reply on my text as much as possible. When he arrived at school we talked a bit and then he said he was not able to reply at me for the reason that he doesn't told me. And then we hugged each other. I love it when he did things such as that because it is really rare, especially when it comes to me. And then the day goes. It's pretty normal but he's not with me today, he's with his other best friend, Bamboo. I am slightly sad about it, but it's ok, it's his choice right? hahahaha And then after class hours we decided to go to 7/11 with mommy joyce and papsi to have an early celebration for papsi's birthday tomorrow. We ate jumbo hotdog and we bought ice cream (gallon) that we ate at the said store. It was fun eating ice cream with a drumstick, imagine how we eat with a small stick. >:P We bond all over and I am too happy. For me that's not only celebration for papsi's birthday but also a celebration for our monthsary. :)

Honestly I am really happy being with James, I don't know what's with him but as much as possible I want to be at his side every moment of everyday. hahahaha I really love my kapatid, though his attentions aren't focus at me. People say many thoughts about me to him. They say that I am to possessive with him, he just use me as his YAYA, but you know it doesn't really matter. I love what I am doing with him and I am happy doing it no matter how it was hard and how it is painful that all efforts are being ignored. hahahaha (what a drama queen!) anyway all I know is that i love him. I just want to be with my kapatid, unfortunately, it cannot be.

this is taken during our foundation day. :)

SUCKiNG TRUTH ♥

mahirap mag-antay sa wala.

"yung dadaan yung araw tapos, alam mo sa sarili mo na may inaantay ka pang hindi pa nangyayari, at ang de potang katotohanan na buong puso kang naniniwala na darating yung isang araw na magiging okay rin ang lahat.

tapos minsan, mapapatanong ka sa sarili mo kung tama pa ba yung ginagawa mo, kahit masakit, kahit alam mong hindi na tama, kaso, alam mo sa sarili mo na pag hindi mo ginawa yun, hindi ka rin naman magiging masaya.

mahirap mag-antay sa wala, mahirap maghintay."

----> chamlurve of Tumblr

I repost this because I believe in her thoughts. I've been in love many times and now I'm experiencing this acts, I'm waiting for nothing. No one tells me to do it, but I'm in it because I really love the person involves in my story. He's special in me and I would do all things I can just to make him happy, and I would do anything for him to be comfortable being with me. But as this passage said it is really painful. How awful I am isn't? I hope that someday my head will banged at the wall and I will be awake by this stupidities I am doing with the person I really love. I mean I'm doing all bullshits just to make that person happy with me but I know he is just ignoring all the efforts I exerted and it's just nothing. I'm in pain but I cannot resist but do things for him.

I MiSS YOU ♥

I miss a lot of people that are important to me, I wish there's no change after all. So people that I love won't change like H-I-M. But I can't control people and time only can tell. I desperately want to see Reuel by this times, I really miss him, he's been absent for about one week or something. Rumors said he had Dengue, hmpft I hate mosquitoes for that and honestly I was about to have dengue, my doctor monitors my platelet and we thought it was dengue after all but fortunately it is not. And I am well by now, but sadly to say my loveone-Reuel is not feeling well because of stupid mosquitoes who bit him. :( I want to see him, I want to visit him in the hospital but I can't ofcourse I have no right to do it, even as a friend. Poor me. Another thing is I miss one of life. XD he's been different, sophisticated, and busy all this times. All I do is understand and understand him. But it really hurts me seeing him with other girls, flirting and forgetting about me. But what can I do? of course nothing again, because I am just a FRIEND. Poor me again. Can somebody love me? Ahhh! I am a bullshit drama queen isn't it? Desperately misses people but those doesn't give any damn or any affection or even care about me. I want somebody to love me. I need somebady to love me, but I guess this isn't the right time.

PRETTY NORMAL ♥

I've been busy all the time, that's the cause why I am unable to blog regularly. The sadness flows through my veins whenever I missed to tell a very important moments in my life. Plus the thing that i lost Internet connection for almost one month, I think. But then it's pretty good to say that I'm back to normal business, I mean just like the old times, I'm blogging to express and share my thoughts and feelings everyday. I hope by now I can manage writing on you everyday my dearest blog, I hope I could find and spare time on you even though school pressure is really killing me and also the toxic of being a COCC. Well forgive me for late entries I'll made starting now. I'll let you know some good memories but it's too late. Anyway it's already September I'm happy to blog with you - and also with my Tumblr.

I'll start it by these post:

• BUKO PANDAN - It's Leonard, our classmate's birthday and we all went to their house to celebrate and it's fun (though at first we are sad because Joyce, our mom, got mad with us) and then we ate spaghetti, palabok and many more. The special thing about it is there was Sean, my past daddy, who are also there and come to celebrate with us. I've been very close with him but we separated our lives since he transferred a school. Well said, I bond with him in a slight special ways, and then he is making special things like "sinusubuan nya ako" of foods he is eating. HAHAHA it was really nice and I said "Lagi mo nalang po ako sinusubuan" and then I think my kapatid heard that while he was eating Buko Pandan and then I was shocked he said to me "AHHHH" he offered his spoon with Buko Pandan and make me say "AHH". I swallowed half of the spoon and all I think is that he was just fooling me and then after I swallowed a half spoon, he swallowed the other half he said "masarap?" and I was just nodding. hahahaha It was funny then. But I don't really think what was his purpose of doing that, but for me it was a sweet way anyway. hehehehe This is the Buko Pandan we ate and thanks to Tit*Karen for modeling it. :)
• - This is my PAST FAMILY (daddy sean, me, mommy joyce) hehehehe LOVE♥