RIBBON OF LOVE♥

Being a Cadette in our school requires to have Pigtails with ribbons green and white.
During our break time my pigtails' ribbon messed up and suddenly it ruined. We (with kapatid) went to Comfort Room to look our haggard selves in the mirror. I asked him to tie the ribbons on my head because I can't do. He refuse of course (how can a man can tie ribbon) - he said. And because I'm such a stubborn one I said (if you can tie your shoe lace of course you can tie this ribbon) I plead him to death with matching dramas. hahahaha and then fortunately he succeeded my task! hahahaha And this was the result (the picture above). LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND! :*

THANK YOU♥

Thank you for this. And of course thank you for being a best friend to me, for caring me even you don't totally show how much. thank you for treating me a girl and for understanding me in my stupidest acts. As a gratitude i'm giving a way my love and sharing it to you. I love you and you are my best-kapatid ever. :)
ERR! I'm such a drama queen!!! I'm tributing this again to my best friend, he gave me this thing. Though I actually forced him to do so. hahahaha!

FAiLiNG MARKS :(

LONG TEST WEEK in our school :( OH CRAP! I was to lazy! I didn't review any lesson even I planned to. I was like sleeping and sleeping and sleeping and then eating using computer!!!! WHAT THE HECK! :( And because of this acts I got SUPER FAILING MARKS that puts me on the ground! I mean this is so degrading! :( I got 61% as my lowest! EEW totally eew! But this is because of huge computations that I really hate to study with! HMMP! Computations/Mathematics/Conversions ruined my life. I worried about my top and ofcourse it may affect my life as a COCC. I try to be a hardworking student this time. Please bear with me I want to have INSOMIA so I can have more time to spend in good ways like studying and not for entertainment purposes. I hope I can have good grades next time. :))))

BEST FRiEND LOVE♥

Hello dear blog! I missed you!! hihi ^^ Things are fine with me this week. I'm so much happy and contented enough that all things bare with me. hahaha Just like my best friend J-A-M-E-S (as what I've said), he shows his love for me and concerns about me. You know, I'm just a simple hearted person, all I ever wanted is to be love by my precious ones :)

Anyway, there's this incident I act like a crybaby. AS IN --> it's because of the COCC thing. (I know this breaks the rule but I have to tell you this tragic story) Here it goes: Our dear officers choose the"worthy-one" COCC's. And they others got dumped. I was shocked when my friends esp. my kapatid, not able to picked by officers. I remained with 12 other CO's and officers said that we are qualified enough to be future officers. SHOULD I BE GLAD? --- I say, NO! Alam mo yung pakiramdam na yung mga kaibigan mo hindi napili samantalang lahat kayo nangarap maging officer? nakaka iyak tlaga. And it comes to a point that you have to safe your co- COCC and you'll have the chance to sacrifice, I want to grab the chance to save my loving Kapatid but HOW? I have goals and dreams to. So I'm in a doubt, even the officers are there, I was crying so hard. Then suddenly after that moment, you'll know that it was just a show. OH CRAP! how in the world they canmake us believe that it was true?! hahaha We were fooled but it has a lesson though. My kapatid saw me crying and then when we came home he texted me that he was touched by my act. AWW. :) ----- I really love this stubborn boy. PROMISE :*

LOVE LOVE LOVE ♥

♥ Oh, I'm a stupid crap! Maybe I'm just feeling being left out and not being loved. I thought HE doesn't care for me, he already forget me... BUT I was just thinking of these stupidity. Well from my previous posts I've been complaining that my boy best friend doesn't give me any damn but I guess I was wrong to feel that. He now shows his concerns etc. on me that made me feel "aww I was wrong. I know he love me and I am imporant to him in his own ways" just like that.

What he does to make me feel less worries:
He made me laugh now.
He comforts me when I'm depressed.
He said that I'm BETTER than his new seatmate and it made me smile because his freakin' seatmate make hilarious things to annoy me.! REALLY fucked! >.< (im sorry to you)
He hugs me more than before. :D

And he does simple things I value as a treasure *ya know* I'm just a 'mababaw' person I don't ask for more but attention to make me feel that you love me. Yeah hell yeah! that's me. :D

♥ Another thing is that I don't know if I started to fall AGAIN for someone older than me right in the school. I mean I just moved on from my infatuation to a stupid "pa-fall" person and suddenly here I am again falling into another man? OH CRAP! but I can't just resist he is truely great, gentleman and such a NICE person. Though he was just nothing to me before he was just a normal "kuya" but when I entered COCC I got a chance to know him better. I admit he is one of my officers, I mean really GREAT OFFICER! Just remember in relation to this, I got a chance also to know better my 3-year-man or should I say my Love?! -- I think he is so stubborn, hell to spill the truth but he is not nice as what I am expecting. I worried a lot my feeling to be gone and to fall for another guy. HOPE NOT.

NOT LiKE BEFORE

JAMES NICOLE P. DAVE Don't you see that I dearly LOVE you? I mean our friendship means a lot to me. I love you, I care about you, I tried to protect you as I can even I can't but you seem doesn't even care. :( I'm now in the state of hurt! Yeah you don't notice it because I hide and i pretend I'm normal. Acting that nothing is happening, I'm such a drama queen isn't? You don't know what you are doing to me? Aww because you're too busy with your other friends, that's exactly my problem, I can't cope up seeing you with them while you left me out hanging. I may acting selfish but it's because I'm too sick seeking attention from you. But I just accept everything because I really really do love you. I try to understand that I'm just one of your normal friends and i'm not so important to you. But I want you to know that I'm still here waiting, longing, HOPING because my happiness is with you. I'm sorry I'm selfish. I'm sorry if i expect tooo much for you. And I'm sorry for blogging this shit for you. I'm being this is just because I love you. ♥


The picture up is a portrait of ours. --- we're together and I'm happy seeing you/being you, all just for you and you are happy looking with someone else, searching for others even I'm with you. PATHETIC life. SORRY. :(

HAPPY EiGHT - COCC

Today is JULY E-I-G-H-T 2010, and i am really really so desperately depressed today. Eight is our friendly-monthsary of my BOY BEST FRIEND-JAMES and I am so sad! why? He doesn't even care about me now, not like before. He doesn't give me a damn care?! how could it be?! He just stare at me and then I felt like 'I am alone' he gives more attention to others. I know it is a bit of selfishness but!! what the hell!! It must be our day!! isn't? And another thing that depressed me is he just called me K-I-M -- did he ever forget that I'm his sister or I mean KAPATID.
I just got bored all over my sucking day! And I get myself entertained by staring at the window, watching birds flew, and the trees dancing at my eyes. How pathetic? And I'm a bit glad that Jefferson is right beside me, without knowing he comforts me, yeah really! By just smiling ooh! God! Honestly I am definitely jealous about everyone who is with my best friend, esp. when I'm not with them, swear to God, but I hide it and I'm not just over reacting it in front of them. I pretend everything is all alright, that I'm fine bu the sucking truth is damn NOT. I don't want to revolve my life with one person (pointing to James) but I can't get over it. So sick of seeking attention from him. :(
H-A-P-P-Y-E-I-G-H-T-T-O-U-S ------ so sick of you, but I can't get over.


COCC I'm not yet official cadette of our school but we're starting to train. Yeah it is soo fun. :) But I admit that the nervous is within it. But I enjoy every single knowledge I learned by our lovely commandant "ma'am bulatao" she's great, really. And my favorite part of it is when she utters these words "TIKAS PAHINGA NA" My nerves is sinking. hahahahaha.
--I just remember what happened that inspires me to update this blog is that- Kapatid doesn't really cares me! You know he didn't accompany me going home.! SUCK he chose Kimberly that me. Me that his kapatid/bestfriend/P.A and maybe he forgot it's our day today. AMPF. damn! it sucks!!!!! >.< bye!

VAIN ♥

This is what I do when I am totally BORED and nothing to do esp. when there's no internet connection. Oh apologies for stupid face. Acne attack right now :D

BACKROW SiBLiNGS ♥

BACKROW SIBLINGS - came from the idea of brilliant Jefferson, literally means 'backrow' at the back. Yeah first week of classes, our teacher assigned our seating arrangements (I think I blog about this) then suddenly this group was formed. Our seats are in the back, I am the inly girl of this group we share secrets, thoughts, answers in seatworks/assignments/quizzes, we go to comfort rooms together. hahaha and we helped each other when times of need, like Jefferson is courting a girl, we helped him to buy stuffs and to prepare love letters for that girl. We usually hang out after class, we usually eat to seven-eleven and we always buy mixed slurpee and mountain dew. Oh crap. I felt like a boy to when i'm with them. i'm happy being with them every time because I feel secured, and I feel I have my own brother too.

OH MY BEST FRiEND ♥

I'm such a bully best friend! >:D I always keep a verdict to my kapatid's things. Look on our first conversation I mind his Online status. Look :




Well, and this is what I've got! He mind my status too.! I super laugh when he does these things. :)

Lesson: Don't do unto others what you don't want to do unto you. tahahaha. ♥
PS: My president's spelling is wrong their at the picture and I apology for my stupidity. >:D

OH NOH! ♥

I have this X-classmate who'm I adore most. He's so cute and I admit he have guts, I like his style. Suddenly I got shocked cause he PM me. I'm glad he still remember me and our conversation goes like this.



And again I was freakin' shocked by his questions. :D I admit his cousins are too close too my heart. LOL -- Jason is my past crush and WAS my best friend and then JAMES is my currently boy best friend, on my previous posts James is known by name KAPATID. :)

DASH-TOOLS ♥

OHMG! Isn't cute? :) I'm so glad I learned how to customized tools for my Tumblr. And I would like to thank Mixep for her tutorials. hehehe. She's really great and another thing is that she'd kind to her followers. :)

ANYWAYN I SUPER DOOPER L♥vE iT. :)

WELCOME JULY ♥

Hello July! This is my first entry post for this month. I'm so excited. I think this month takes a lot of adventures like COCC, Food Nutrition Week that must-be update on this lovely blog. *sighs* Ooops I haven't updating you for a couple of weeks (I think) well as usual reason I am too busy by school stuffs. Like assignments, lectures that made me really too tired that I'm not able to update you. FUU.

You know things get complicated this days. IDK why! Maybe because I can't prioritize one thing at a time, not only things but it includes people also. Just like my seiztah, she got mad at me because of my stupidity. By the way I don't regret what I've done, Hell yeah but I know I have faults. But right now we're alright and back together! Aww what did I say? "back together" ? excuse me, we're not being tgether, hahahaha what I'm trying to point out is that she's not mad at me already. :)

I'll post some stuffs later, ok? hehehehe stuffs that made me laugh, felt strong and intense feelings. :)