11-12-10

This day is a bit hard for me. The half part of the day went good. We played volleyball(Kapatid and I were Teamates) I'm happy within it though. Suddenly after our school class, Kapatid and I done something (Student Council Thing). -- I don't wanna elaborate things because it drives me crazy. And then we had a misunderstanding :( He is so mad at me. I am scared and i don't know what to do. You know that I don't want anyone to get mad at me esp. HIM! :( But then I got home with super sad feelings. My mom isn't home so I cried a lot. I love him very much. But what can I do? I've done mistake. Moments ago, I texted him and said Sorry, this goes like this: "Kapatid sorry kanina ah. Hindi kita makausap kasi ayoko sabayan yung pagkabadtrip mo. Wag ka na magalit pls?gud nyt" It took me much minutes to send it so. And then I got his reply "Hmm.Forget it" I don't know what he really means and if we're ok. But my feelings are still. SAD! Then I fell asleep. Maybe too much sadness brought me so and too much cry.

THE NEXT DAY: 11/13/10
Ooh, We had a family bonding. I supposed to be happy and enjoy this day but I AM DEPRESS! yes totally depress. Of course because of it again plus the fact that his GM's are making me feel so jealous. (Stating that he loves his GIRL FRIENDS) T.T
(I'll make a story on our bonding next time. If I'm in mood)

11/14/10
CHURCH DAY. I saw him. He served 3rd mass which I also did. During communion, we had an eye-to-eye contact. I saw in his eyes the uncomfortable feelings that he have seen me. :( This made my day more depressing than the other day. I hate the feelings i get. I know that I should forget it because he told me so, but uhhhhhhh IDK.:(
I am still sad. I'm hoping for the better US tomorrow. :(