FEBRUARY ♥

Almost one year since I started blogging here with you. It's been a year crying out loud at you, saying non sense things as if you could here me and give advice back. This was the exact time when I was telling you that I am sad for some stupid things around me. And like before, shitness is with me again. I am totally desperately depress. Many things are the cause. I suffered much pain but no one knows how it bothers me (except you)because I didn't show, I pretend that I am strong, pretend that it was nothing and that I am happy. But it was all lie. I am such a lier. Can someone kill me now? I hate my life. :( Depress with guys. How can I make my life a vulnerable one?

NEVER KNEW WHAT IT IS :(

Hindi mo alam
by Pecatorre


Hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit.
Na huwag sabihin ang nararamdaman mong tinatago mong pilit.
Dahil ayaw mong masira ang inyong samahan
At magkunwaring masaya ka na lang kahit maging kaibigan.
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Hindi mo alam kung gaano kahirap
Magkunwaring masaya at magpanggap
Na hindi mo mahal ang isang tao.
Na kasing tigas at manhid ng isang bato.
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Hindi mo alam kung paano iwanan
Ng tinuturing mong pinakamalapit mong kaibigan
Na nangakong palaging sya naandyan
Pero tingnan mo ngayon nag iisa ka at luhaan?
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Hindi mo alam kung paano umasa
Hanggang dumating sa puntong para ka nang tanga
Minsan sasagot ng oo pero kadalasan ay hindi
Nagtatanong ka sa diyos kung may nagawa kang mali.
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Kaya tumigil ka dyan - dahil hindi mo alam
Ang pakiramdam ng isang luhaan at iniwanan
Darating din ang oras na ikaw ang magmamahal
Gagawin mo ang nakakatawa - Gagawin mo ang bawal.