TOXiC - BEST FRiENDS

I can't write on my blog yesterday because I'm too toxic of so many stuffs ruined in my life. Like planning for "lakwatcha" today but i'ts being cancelled, because they are not really participating. Well another thing is that me and my best friend are were talking about the creations of Mr. Marcelo Santos|||. He is awesome, I can relate myself to his stories, one of those is entitled "BEST FRIENDS" OMG it's so dramatic, and yes painful also.
After I watched some of his videos, I texted my best friend(boy) then I told him why is that Marcelo's story always about best friends then the other one fell in love to another. Then I said how if the time came that I fell in love with him what would be the result. And then he told me that if ever that would happen i have to wait for him like what he did on his girlfriend right now. And I felt like 'WOOOW, do I really have to do that? Waiting for him is like Hurting my own self' then I replied, I told him I would not let it happen(it already happen) because I know he loves his girlfriend. It's really a painful thing. Yeah and then he said "we don't know the future, maybe the fate says that we will end up together." And I don't know how to react on that I just told him a simple 'good night'.

-then tonight he asked me if what happen last night he thought it was just a dream. hmmp it's a rude thing. I'm tired of these. I want to regret everything. But I can't.

CONVERSATiON ♥

Gelo
hi pangkin'
Kim
hello po
Kim
tito alam nyo po matagal ko na kayo gustong
pansinin ee. haha hiya lang ako.
Gelo
san,,s simbhan>
Kim
opo.
Gelo
bt nhhya k?
Kim
eh feeling ko susungitan mo lang ako. chaka parang FC db.
Gelo
pnu m nlman n suplado q?
ahahaha
Kim
ahmm. naramdaman ko lang? haha
Gelo
glng m nman
gnun aq pgdting sa lbas
Kim
haha. hula lang po -- sabi nga po nila kahit ganun ka mabait ka din naman
Gelo
cnu ngsbe??
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Kim
c james at nina. lalo n c james
Gelo
ahh oo
pgncklose m q ng husto
mkult aq
pero pg nd mxado
hmala n ln pg npghi m q
Kim
hehe. sna maging close din po tau. kahit mejo lang ok na un.
Gelo
hahhahh
hhya dn aq ee
Kim
sakin po? nyak
Gelo
oo
Kim
bakit naman po. haha
Kim
gud night na tito. happy ako nakilala kita
Gelo
goodnyt dn
bye
slpwell
swtdreams
Kim
hehe. same to you po.

--at jan nag tatapos ang lahat ♥

ON THE BRiGHTER SiDE

Well despite of being a loner, I'm happy because the person I longed to talk finally PM me. HAHA and as a matter of fact he finally call me his pamangkin. :) LOLs. I love it when someone treats as their family kasi eh. haha So that's why I'm happy ngayon. :D
Another thing is that seiztah and I had a conversation a while ago. And I miss her that's all I can say I miss the long conversation, ek2. :P LOVE IT ♥.♥ GV na ako. :P

WHATTHE!!

Can you imagine I helped the girl I hate? OMG i don't know what happened to me, maybe it was an adrenaline. I really helped her on her hater. Because her hater said that she was a 'solotera'. Well I think so, she is. haha but I don't know her hater kaya pinag tanggol ko sya. :P Stupid isn't it? nyahaha :P

ADVANCE TEN. :)

Well being part of TENners.. I want to greet them this way. Wala kasi akong load to text them all, so I made a post for TEN. Here it is.! TEN is special. mua. :) :*

OH MY F*CK!

I hate this night. Well it's because of H-E-R. It's a bad night seeing her online. I don't know what happened to me. Ngayon lang kasi ULIT ako nagka ganito. Tsk. dati hindi na ako bitter, dati calm nalang ako. I don't know what happened talaga, I'm freakin' allergic sakanya. Sana hindi mag tuloy tuloy, kasi hindi ko alam kung anong pwedeng mangyare pagka nag tuloy tuloy to. I don't want to lose neither HER nor HIM (esp. HIM) haha... I don't want to be like this na talaga but i can't stop. So paranoid. >:(

EiGHT ♥.♥

APRIL 8,2010
-2 months na (daw kami) as F.R.I.E.N.D.S hehe. We celebrated this day together with our lovely friends(Daddy Kimuel, Dezza, Dianne-Ate Steff, and Ate Max). we explored a lot through 'Parkwoods'. Well I enjoyed the day, although it's not enough. I asked him to be my boy best friend :) As my official "boy best friend' -- and he agreed. hehehe. He is my only 'boy best friend' but in him, I have a lot of position in his heart (madami daw syang best friend) anyway it's ok narin. At least he treats me as his best friend. ♥.♥

HELLO SUMMER! (:

Well, summer is really here. Kaya eto ako super vacation na (: hehe. Mejo umitim nga lang ako super swimming kasi. hehe Pero kaya yan! Strawberries are sweet. Fun sila kainin, hihi. mwahhh ♥.♥

EiGHT

Good morning! Well today is April 7, 2010. I received a text message from him asking me what is the date tomorrow, well I pretend I don't know and I forgot our 'friendly' monthsary. Ofcourse, how can I forget that special date of ours right? almost everyday I celebrated with MYSELF only because for him it doesn't matter. And then he said it's EiGHT! happy monthsary in advance. And then I replied oh, we're 1 month already, and he said '2 months'. haha. Well I felt happy because he remembered that thing but in spite of that I felt sadness because again it's a 'friendly monthsary' only FRIENDS. I should be happy being his friend, should I? maybe. I wouldn't ask for more at least we are close. mua.

TOTALLY DEPRESSED. :(

I shouldn't love him, in the first place I never thought na mag kaka gusto ako sakanya. Second F.R.I.E.N.D.S lang kami, at hanggang doon lang ang kaya nyang ibigay sakin. Yes how awful but un na nga. Chaka ako rin ung nasasaktan eh, I keep on hiding my real feeling, ang alam nya ok ako, na wala lang may ibang mahal, ang hirap ng ganon. Although happy ako sa relationship nila ng mahal nya kasi mahal nya nga di ba, kaso hindi ko maaalis isipin na sana ako na lang un, di ba. eto pa ang isang masakit eh, pag malungkot ako(dahil sakanya) lagi syang anjan para payuhan ako. Bullshit as in, meron pa nga syang sinabi sakin na 'if you love him then ipaglaban mo' sinagot ko sya sabi ko 'hindi pwede kasi may iba sya'. Basta i keep on asking myself... Why am I ruin by these things? sya lang naman yan madami pang iba. Hmmmp. April na, jusko eh February palang ata pinoproblema ko na toh. sana sa June totally moved on na ako. Hindi ko na kasi kaya I don't want to loose him kaya nag papaka martir nalang ako sa pagsunod sakanya.

MY BLOG♥

Hello blog! how are you, I really miss you. i think this is my first ever post in the month of April.XD Well everything is back then, my computer is fine and I can blog on you every time I want like before. I'm still ok but like before I'm still in love with a friend. Well it still hurts me, but unlike before i can now control my feelings, kasi dati pagka nakita ko silang magkasama, napapasuntok ako sa pader ee, ngayon kahit kasama ko pa sila kaya ko paring tiisin although andun padin ung sakit. hehehe. I love you blog. :)