Naa- ah. Hi Blog it's been a couple of months since the last time I wrote here. A lot of wonderful stories happened and a memories to share. Anyway I don't know how to begin but let me explain (?) why I didn't have the chance to spill it out. It's because my internet connection has been cut. Awful days of my life. But not much, though it kills me not to stay too long for computer.
Let's get started :) Remember Christian Ivann Tan? The guy I'm telling you from my previous post? I thought he's gonna quit courting me. But I was wrong. He is so flexible and so patient in me. Even if I refuse him so many times, he is still continuing to communicate with me.
Now, I'm letting him in my life. I entertain him and we exchange text messages to each other. I am doing this because I find myself happy with him. I told myself not to fall for him but it is so hard, I can't say I can do it nyahahaha. All of a sudden, he make my life complete. I feel so much inlove and each time we communicate I feel that we are one. That we are in a relationship, but we are not. I don't want to be his girlfriend but I want him, I just want to have justice on what did I said last time that not all girls can be his.
So we started from April 12 I guess until now and I am happy because he is patient with me. I knew that he was liking me since March 28. Though sometimes we are quarreling, but after that we ended up sweet to each other, saying sorry for our faults. I find it sweet even I cried if we have quarrels because I think we are really couple ^^ You know I did cry because I'm hurt, and I am afraid that he will be gone far away if our quarrel stay for long. I am afrai to lose him.
As the days past, I planned to escape him. I planned not to text him so that this feeling will not get worst, so I will not fall inlove with him deeply. But I guess it's too late. Every time I tried to do this plans, I can't resist, I can't stand for too long and give up. End up missing him. And his sweet messages makes me weak. So weak and I find myself going back to him, the usual things we do.
It came to a point that he calls me. Even though we have nothing to say, we are happy hearing each others voice. He is soo sweet, no wonder every girls fall in love with him.
My thoughts of him of being a pervert is totally wrong. Girls are perverting him he may entertain them but he has only one love. And during that time, I feel that I the one really loves.
